Tuesday, May 24, 2022

16 sweet years


Oh hey, I just realized today, May 24, is the 16th anniversary of Topaz Horizon. Here's a photo from that year. That's me with our bunny wabbits, Galadriel and Gandalf.

I was bored in 2006, so I started a nonsense blog where I dumped all my silly thoughts about being a managing editor of a magazine, shopping for second-hand everything on eBay, taking care of rabbits, and being in love. Remember when blogs were just brain dumps with dark, grainy photos like that above? The olden days.

My blog's changed a lot since. I got engaged, got married, moved into a new home, got a plum career, lost it later, the bunnies died, my mother died, I had babies, I became part of this slick new world of influencers then I tired of its vanity quickly, then I had writing/editing/PR jobs here and there, lost myself, found myself, my father died, I wrote a book, I'm now writing a new one, my kids are growing up, my marriage is still doing great (even better!)... Wow, crammed the last 16 years in one sentence. 

Last week, I was going through this blog and let me tell you that I cringed at my early posts. I was young, I was shallow, I was selfish. Of course, middle-aged me would cringe. But I would never tell the younger me to change. Because even in my youth and selfishness, I also had nuggets of wisdom there. But I was so honest, I was cruel. The years have taught me to be compassionate and kind, especially when I'm right.

And maybe that's why I haven't been blogging so much anymore. I like to keep stuff to myself. So much of our lives are shared online now. I always shared my thoughts but carefully chose what parts of my life to share. Even 16 years ago, in the infancy of social media, I instinctively knew I had to keep huge parts of myself to myself. And though I believe everyone should say what they want to say, I also now know that we shouldn't.

The world has changed so much since 2006. Everyone has a platform and to my dismay, everyone uses their platform for hate or self-love. I don't know if this is the world I want to move in. Retreat, retreat.

But I still want to blog. I love it too much. And I will miss you so. You have been such good friends, growing up with me. Thank you always for your kindness, understanding, advice, and correction. I wouldn't know where I'd be without my Dear Loyal Readers. If you've stayed all these 16 years, my goodness, God bless you! I know some of you have left (especially when I decided not to be a mommy blogger anymore) and that's okay. I have never wanted people to stay when they think it's time to move on. I don't like dragging out relationships. But for the times you were here, I delighted in it. Thank you! Some of you are new and so you know the mommy me or the kind me or the wise me. I hope you don't read the early posts of this blog then haha. 

Anyway, 16 years is a long time. I never thought I'd be blogging this long. And maybe I won't for a while. I have three not-so-little boys whose needs may not be so urgent anymore but they need me just the same. I have a marriage that I savor so much, it's so much better now than ever and I just want to spend more time with my husband (we're so busy with work and school and home that we have to snatch our moments together!). And I want to write more books! My Not Invisible book gave me so much joy. I want to feel that always. Thank you to everyone who bought my book! I love you all!

I'm getting sentimental. I'm 45. We met when I was turning 30. Imagine that! Thank you. You are the friends I always wanted. Such a gift to me who always had a hard time making friends. I will count each of you a blessing and may the love you gave me and my family come back to you a hundred times forever.  

7 comments:

  1. I’ve been a fan for years now, albeit a silent one. It’s a treat for me when I see that you have a new post. Kinda like in the old days of komiks when we can’t wait for the next issue, that’s the feel I get from reading your blog. It’s interesting, definitely gets my attention and hasn’t made me cringe even once. You’re like my virtual best friend, I get you. And what I specifically like about your blog, it’s not geared towards one geographic population. I could be from another place and still relate to everything that you post. And when you proudly declared who you supported in the last charade of an election, it only made me like you more. I really admired your self control in not giving in to the baiting and provoking but instead addressed them with grace and dignity. Happy anniversary Topaz Horizon!!! Here’s to more years of intelligent and thought provoking blogs. Don’t ever change anything!

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    1. Thank you for being with me all these years! It's amazing to find kindred spirits all over the world, no? Kahit hindi natin kilala or makikita ever, it's still good to know there is someone out there who gets us =) Thank you for getting me!

      As for the elections... I won't deny it was hard not to get angry. But Jesus said love your neighbor as yourself. Leni said magmahal nang radikal. So I'm not as good a person as they are but every day talaga we have to try. =)

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  2. Happy 16!!! I always enjoy reading your blog posts, Frances, so I hope you won't give it up completely. I started blogging 2005 with Multiply and because of my posts there I landed a job as a business blogger. LOL. But I still kept on being a momblogger, but work/career got in the way that's why I lost my mamaisworking.com platform. I wish I fought for it but I was just buried with work then. Ha ha! Now, I still blog every now and then. Happy to "meet" you, and know that I am one of your cheerleaders!

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    1. Thank you, Meikah! For being my cheerleader, for supporting everything I do! Sana nga one day magkita tayo IRL!

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  3. Hi Frances. I am one of your long-time readers. I can't remember when I started reading your blog, I think 2008-ish(?), that time when you started a leather bag business? I have been keeping up with your blog through the years, and its nice to know that you havent been swallowed up by the influencer madness that some old-school bloggers have. Your blog is one of the few that I read regularly (kahit may FB/Instagram na). I also send you DMs in Insta when you post about Harry and Megan, lol. Keep writing, Im sure you are inspiring many readers like me!

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    1. Kung leather bag biz, that was 2011. I was pregnant with my middle boy and the business was so stressful, dinugo ako and ordered by my OBG to bed rest! That's why I stopped it.

      Thank you for being here all this time! And for sharing my love-hate relationship with the royal family haha Let's chat more next week sa Jubilee celebrations - Harry and Meghan will be with the royal family! Hoping everything's going to be okay!

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